I
had my first Argentinian Tango lesson last week and it blew my mind. I’ve always loved to dance; I love the feeling of fluid movement and the
focus it takes for balance, control and strength to come together to form movement
that (hopefully) appears effortless.
I’ve taken dance lessons in one form or another since I was 6. At some point in my teens I think I lost the
joy that, for me, is inherent in dance due to dancing for competition’s sake rather
than dancing for dancing’s sake.
Thankfully, I’ve rediscovered that joy as an adult. It doesn’t matter anymore if I’m better or
worse than anyone else, dance is my body’s expression of true joy, my personal
bubble of happiness.
So
why Argentinian Tango? Latin dance has
both intrigued and confronted me – its earthiness, rawness and sensuality
suggest that to be comfortable doing the dance is to be comfortable with who
you are. Perhaps that’s why it makes
sense to me at this point in my life – I’m confident in the person I am and how
I look, attributes that often come with age and life experience. In any case, Argentinian Tango isn’t the
ballroom Tango you may be thinking of, it’s a social dance and is less locked
up and structured than its ballroom counterpart – it’s what real people dance
when they dance Tango (or so say the experts!).
It’s also best described as flirty or coquettish, it’s a subtle advance
and retreat, much like a new relationship.
My
initial hurdles were all technical – posture and feet and arm positioning. Once that’s sorted, most of the challenge is
in your head. My instructor Rosemary
wasn’t wrong when she said Argentinian Tango is as much for the mind as it is
for the body.
The
biggest challenge for me, and I suspect for a lot of women, is the almost total
surrender of control. Yes, you have a
choice as to whether you allow yourself to be led in a particular direction
(resisting the man’s attempt to lead you is called bricking or blocking) but as
a general rule the men lead and the women follow. This means you’re often travelling backwards,
and so can’t see where you’re going and you don’t know what step you’re doing
until your partner begins the dance (and you succumb to his lead and
direction).
The dance finds its fluidity when you listen to your partner’s body language and, for the most part, let him chart the course. For an independent woman used to doing almost everything for herself, this is easier in theory than practice!
The only way I could move fluidly and with purpose was when I abandoned
my need to see and move in a forward direction, to know exactly where I was
going and let someone else tell me where to go.
All things completely contrary to the way I generally live my life which
of course got me thinking….
I’ve
tried to control my life’s direction, in fact have been so desperate to find some direction over the last few
years that it was both challenging and empowering to relinquish control and let
someone else make the decisions for a change.
The times in life when I’ve planned and directed things to the nth
degree haven’t always worked out whereas the times when I’ve allowed myself to
drift along and have reacted to unexpected changes as they occurred, rather
than trying to anticipate every single variable, have been the times I’ve
learned the most about myself.
I’m
also not good at allowing myself to need other people – my general philosophy
has always been that if I’m capable of doing something for myself then I’ll
just get it done. It’s not an attempt to
prove anything to anyone, it’s simply my independent and practical nature - I
can, therefore I do. But as much as I’m
capable, I also realise it’s really nice to be needed and it’s nice to let
someone else make decisions sometimes (even ones that affect you). This doesn’t have to mean completely ceding control
but there’s an intense freedom in not knowing what’s coming next and not
feeling the need to plan for every possible eventuality. So as well as learning to live more in the
moment, I’m using Tango to let go and just let life happen while I enjoy the
potential excitement of the unknown.
Love it!
ReplyDeleteI'm the opposite, I used to just go with the flow all the time and let life happen to me...so my lesson has been learning to go after things I want to do/achieve :)It's all about taking the risk to jump out of our comfort zone! (whether it's letting go or taking control!)
You have such a positive energy in your writing! So encouraging! :)
M
Thanks M! It's all about balance in the end which, like tango, can be tricky to achieve!
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